| Housework and Cell Phone Hell! |
[Aug. 24th, 2005|02:18 pm] |
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I am still OT although I did have a really rough day and had a handful of sf type M nM's when I logged on to my bank account to see we had 17.00 in checking after I had just moved 600 there 3 days ago, so I moved another 1,000 in and started digging for the reason ( this has happened for past 3 months and I was chalking it up to too much spending and Tab living here eating us out of house and home) and found our cell phone bill was nearly 600.00 and nearly fainted......well, come to find out it has been that much or more every month for awhile now and it was youngest dh going way over his minutes (we have 1200 min 400 for each phone and ds somehow had text jokes and ringtones daily that were 2.00 a pop as well as 1,900 minutes used on his phone) so this morning I am going to cingular to cancel his phone and he will be getting a Cricket (prepaid local phone with inlimited minutes) with his own money and with Tab leaving in a week and that settled maybe we can get back to having extra money again. Tab went to stay with her mom for 2 days and I have tons of leftovers in fridge, but when she is here not a morsal is left after dinner, she eats like she is heading for a very bad winter and she is killing us that way! Sorry for the rant, I just want my quiet life back with no more boarders!
Still working on house, 3 rooms down and 5 to go....Calgon take me away!!!! |
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| Getting in a slump! |
[Aug. 18th, 2005|09:21 am] |
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I am tired all the time now, and I need to be able to exercise but I do not want to hurt my knees, Grrrrr. I worked in the house all day yesterday, trying to move my stuff out of guest room and have no where to put my stuff....and will need to clean Nicks room and have it ready for him because I know I can't trust Zach to do it right. sigh. And now that I have asked Tab to move out I will also have to clean her room too since she never does, and that is part of the reason she has to go.....I will not clean up after another teen any longer, she stays up all night, sleeps all day and completely takes over the tv in living room and computer in den, becoming angry when Zach wants to use either and hell, he is my son and she acts like she is above him, plus she is eating us out of house and home, she takes off with the biggest steak, get multible servings even when I have only made enough for everyone to have one serving and I am tired of it.....we are short of money every month now and it has to end, her check barely covers the food she eats.
She is leaving on the first and I guess I was hoping she would take off before then but noooo, she is hanging in til the last minute, so bank account will be zero again by the first. sigh |
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| I survived the weekend, Barely! |
[Aug. 16th, 2005|09:37 am] |
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I had a very good visit with my family however I had to deal with swollen knees
at the same time and then my laptop died on me, boy I must have really bought a lemon...so it is in the shop and I should know by tomorrow if I can even afford to fix it. sigh.
I was so wiped out yesterday all I could manage was some light swimming and eating so maybe I can get something done today.....oh and I got to chat with Nickfor awhile so that was good:) |
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| Travel Day! |
[Aug. 12th, 2005|07:00 am] |
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I am up and moving and although I feel much better my knees are killing me.....no more squat machines for a while, will do leg lifts instead....I can barely bend them this morning and something tells me the drive will be rough. I barely did any squats yesterday but I guess what I did was too much cause it HURTS! Ihave all my LC items boxed up so I can cook for them and myself, and I hope to take some pictures this time:)I guess I need an updated pic taken. I need this weekend since my aunt will be there and she is the one I get my mother fix from, my mom does not have time for her daughters, since she is too busy with her grandsons that she managed to turn into her sons....she always made it plain she wanted boys and instead got 6 girls and I was lost in the shuffle. Anyway mom did her dammest to steal my first born son and I stopped her but she did finally get a son from my baby sister, and she was not strong enough to fight her off so mom raised him without ever knowing his real mom and he turned out to be a real mess. I have to go to my mom's twin to get the love hugs and kisses she never gave me. Damm, where did that come from?? Anyway I am so hoping it will be a good visit:) |
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| Things Are Looking Up:) |
[Aug. 10th, 2005|08:58 pm] |
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Well, looks like I have found the real cause of my lack of energy and being hot, cold, I found an abcess on my tummy tuck scar and it opened up and it was instant relief, so it was infection that kicked my ass for past 5 days......and sure I did hurt, but that was not the reason for the fatigue...the infection was, so maybe tomorrow I can actually get something done:)
I am gonna go to bed now and try to get an early start tomorrow. |
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| Not Quite Myself Yet! |
[Aug. 10th, 2005|11:09 am] |
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Now I understand why doctors have said to never let pain get out of hand, that you should take the meds before pain gets too bad, because after going 2 days without anything I am still feeling pain in places I did not even know I had pain, 24 hours later I am still hurting and taking advil by the handful in addition to my regular meds, Grrrrr, I was so hoping I could do m workout today and I am still having trouble just walking.Pain is a funny thing, when its under control you rarely give it a thought, but when you hurt this bad it consumes your whole life, and I was an unsafe driver yesterday with no meds in my system, too distracted by the pain to even drive safely, never again can I do that......before I made sure I took my meds several hours before leaving the house for safeties sake, and I felt sure I could pass a sobriety test before getting on the road, but doubt I could have yesterday with nothing in my system, oh well, surely I will be back to myself soon!
Well dh took the news of the pool much better then I thought he would, and he thinks we can bring the sand filter out of retirement and use it instead of paying 100+ for a new valve, because Zach's gf does not have the money to buy it, and who's to say it would not have broken with dh and I so we can't charge her, sigh.
Well I ate on plan yesterday even though I ate a taco salad for every meal, plus a little fruit, water and green tea, so it could have been worse:)
I need to get productive today, and do as much as I can, as this week is flying by. |
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| Is This Day Still Not Over Yet?? |
[Aug. 9th, 2005|04:32 pm] |
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I made it to the doctor and they kept saying how sorry they were, just not sorry enough to have kept me from going through it in the first place.....so she felt so bad she rushed me through the process and quickly got me out of there and then got the Rx filled and took it but it is taking a while for me to feel painfree again....so looks like no workout for today.....anhaning that part...luckily he is pretty d if I was wondering if my pain was still as bad I don't have to wonder anymore because it is...I was dragging my left leg by the time I got home my left butt cheek was hurting like a SOB, also I found that without the meds I am not a safe driver, since I was too distracted by the pain, so hope I don't go there again. I still plan to switch, no one should be treated this way.
So anyway I come home and my son's gf was going to the pool to swim I explained to her how to backwash the pool and soon she comes in looking scared and tells me she broke the handle of the sand filter, Damm and double damm!! I checked and the replacement part is 100.00 and 20.00 to ship, dh is gonna die when he fings out.....he is fishing today...I just hope there is a way he can patch it up without buy the part.....luckily he is pretty handy in that way!
I plan to relax this evening and make a taco salad ( LC of course) for dinner and get busy at Curves and getting this house cleaned so I can go to Ohio and visit my fun relatives:) |
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| Going To The Doctor! |
[Aug. 9th, 2005|08:02 am] |
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I have to get ready and go see those unfeeling doctors this morning, and its gonna take all my control to be civil to them and I plan to confront them and ask them why! Just hope this will be my last visit there, don't need this BS.
I will stop at the market and pick up some coffee and then will be on my way to Knoxville.
I sure hope I can get in my workout today, begin to feel bad without exercise.
Guess I will update more later. |
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| Pain Is Terrible Tonight! |
[Aug. 8th, 2005|09:32 pm] |
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Well, this is the second time these doctors have done me this way, I am taking just enough pain meds to live and they give me a 30 day supply and my next apt 32 days apart and tell me when I complain to just deal with it, plus when I had my arm surgery they subtracted the amount the surgeon gave me from the amount they usually give that basically made sure I had no pain coverage for the surgery at all and I am fed up!! I plan to call my primary md tomorrow after I see these jerks and go to a place that I will be treated with dignity and have my needs met.
Its bad enough to live with chronic pain then have to put up with such insensitivity as well. Once I have the appt with the place I should have went with to start with I plan to tell them exactly why I won't be using them anymore....not that it will matter, but it will make me feel better.
So I did not make it to Curves today, I am in pure survival mode, and my skin hurts.....like if someone touches me I will scream!!
I am forcing myself to eat, just can't wait until morning when I can get some relief, and its a shame because at least 2 people have offered me some very strong pain meds but I don't dare take them because there are sure to drug test me since they must know how badly I am hurting.....and no way will I give them the satisfaction of catching me with the wrong drug in my body, I will just suck it up and hope to God I never have to deal with assholes like them ever again!
I am so happy that Lct s back up......have been lost without them, need to hear the voice of reason sometimes, Mizkitty and I have kind of been a support group of two lately, and we have done pretty well considering:) |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|12:46 pm] |
OMG the pool was so horrible yesterday, looked like a swampland....had at least an inch of sludge on top and if you can belive it a full grown fish, maybe a foot long..and at first we thought we proved evolution but later found out dh put him there a week ago So we stood outside the pool at first and netted most out, then we got in ( I wore my crocs and they were great for the job) and I had used triple the amount of shock and algecide needed and we knew everything was dead...Yuck yuck yuck...and we worked like fiends getting walls scubbed down and netting the rest out...so now dh has patched it and filling it with new water and will let the auto vaccum take over and will add more chemicals tomorrow, then I can swim and get sun...Yippie!!!!
OMG I Did It!! On the first try came up with a breakfast muffin that tastes like a bacon egg cheese biscuit, throw on some gravy and biscuits and saugage is here!!
The big test was dh and my neice loved it, ( and Brandi too, and she hates everything)!! If anyone wants details pm me!!
7-25-05
Oh its monday morning and I am sunburned from hell and I killed my lovely new digital camera, somehow it got wet and I dont know if it will ever come back to life
I need to get moving, get to the bank, go to Curves, work on the pool again, too much work, too little time
I actually found something better for the pain, it is vinagar, takes the sting right out.
I don't have much hope for the camera, maybe I can find replacement on ebay without, battery, charger, memory sticks, et...at least I am hoping
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7-26-05
Good morning all,
I know, I am still sick about the camera, just hoping I can snag a good deal on ebay soon, I am lost without it So far the cheapest I have found is 150, and I would like to beat that if possible. So TF, you should be getting that wonderful blueberry coffee anyday now OMG my ac unit went down in my bedroom and i was up nearly all night, the rest of the house has central air so I came in the guest room at 6 am and slept until 11......and I never sleep that late!!
Sorry Foxy, I guess I should have known to spell out tennesee, I am so used to abreviating everything, I never thought!
Nashville is not some place I would care to live, too busy and too much country music to suit me ( Junie, who is stuck in the 60's and 70's pop music) So Franny, how did your dh like Nashville?
Kitty, sure wish you were done with school, I could get used to having you around!
7-27-05
Good morning everyone,
I am turning into a big ole lazy house cat these days, got up at 4am and then back down at 6am and slept until 9:30.....so I am just now drinking myy coffee!
I am so sore from the laps I swam yesterday, the backs of my thighs really are feeling tight....so I guess thats a good thing, and I am slowly moving around, got to drink my coffee, take a bath, and go to Curves, then to the store to pick up some supplies.
Dh went fishing again, so I will at least have some quiet around here today
I am still sore but still went to Curves, and today has not been a good day for me!
First I overslept, then managed to wake up enough and went to the store for what seems never ending supplies, then to Curves, and then ran into the dollar store store to grab some paper plates and my cell phone rings and as I try to answer it the phone slips out of my hands and flys across the store and when I get to it find it was my son in Iraq and I missed one of his precious calls.........then home and when I walked in the door I just had a feeling, anyway carried bags to the kitchen to find garbage can overflowing, both kitchen sinks running over with dirty dishes ( I have a new dishwasher) and my niece filling another plate with last nights leftovers making even more messes, my 17 y/o son and his gf (she is 18) sitting on the couch with another one of their friends and when I went into my bedroom to hide some LC food for dh
because even though they do not follow a lc woe they will eat anything in sight, and find my son's gf's 2 y/o baby sitting in the middle of my bedroom playing with dh's heart meds and toothpicks all over, Grrrrrrrrrr, I lost it, started screaming that unless they wanted to cook their own food for now on the dishes, trash and clothes in the bathroom flour better get taken care of!
Then I come in here and sit dowm at my laptop to cool off and see that my son sent me messages on yahoo and I missed him there too....and her baby came in and grabbed my poor 10 lb doggy and she snapped and before I knew it I had smacked my little doggy, and she looked at me with those big brown eyes like How could you?? Then I swear I saw tears in her eyes and I burst into tears......I mean how could I hit the only one here that loves me no matter what? This all going on while I have Brandi on the phone and she must think I am nuts cause I had to hang up cause you can't talk and cry at same time. So anyway, trash was taken out, dishes were done and everyone scattered, leaving the crazy old woman alone....oh and to top it off at Krogers the cashier asked me if I had a senior discount card and I told her if she were my waitress her tip would have just been blown!! She said sorry but I have to ask everyone....am I a senior at 48?? Why did that upset me so?? sigh.
Storm is over I guess, is it a full moon tonight?
Oh Junie, I don't think you're crazy lady. I actually felt bad cuz I couldn't give you a hug or say anything useful on the phone. I'm sry you day sucked and that you missed Nick, believe me I know how you feel and it really blows. He said he'd try again in a few days, and sounded good on the phone. He's only got about 40 more days of doing hard stuff, then the new guys arrive and he'll be doing laundry runs and mailing stuff home. He was positive and laughing and he's ok.
Tomorrow will be better, relax in your pool or take a bath with those nice smelling bath salts you make. Spend a day on yourself, and next time I'm in town, I'll cook something up, k?
And you're not a senior, you don't look like one at all. The girl must have been new and not realized you don't have to follow the script exactly. I'm impressed that you called her on it. That takes boldness and a sense of pride, you've got that and I admire it.
7-28-05
Still reading my book called the dance of anger and after yesterday its a good thing.
I am still dealing with angry feelings and feel for me distance is a good thing in some areas....I mean if you just can't get along with certain people, it is best to avoid them completely, at least it is for me....and I don't understand why some people can't just let things die, go on with their lives....I mean I am....guess I just don't get it. The way I am, if I have a problem with someone, I steer clear of where they may be, not because I am afraid, or even feel guilty, simply because they are not worth the time and don't want all the negative energy that goes along with it. Dwelling on the past is what used to get me in trouble and kept me fat, now I just want to go forward, and live each day to the fullest, life is too short to be mad all the time.
Well thats my scrambled up thoughts for the day, wish the UPS guy would get here, don't want to miss my package but I need to swim my laps soon
7-29-05
Ok, hopefully this will be a better day for me....so anyway, as I was saying the pizza turned out good, but the second one was overcooked but the first one went very fast You can make your crust as thin or thick as you like with the carbquik.....funny thing is here I sit with legal crust and all I wanted was the toppings......you believing that??
Kim, my dh had 6 by passes at age 45 (he is now 58) and they are 90% blocked and he had already had 2 stents put in and now they are down to meds only, and it blood sugar this past month shot up to 600 and within a month of him eating LC yesterday when I checked it was 67 and he has lost weight so now he can once again wear his size 34's. He can't cook anything so its up to me, but he is a hellofa handyman and he buys me jewery too
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7-30-05
I know my dh can't have anymore surgery, not unless they come up with a way to use artificial veins, cause he is all out
I agree, they are big boys and we can't make them anything, all I can do is fill his med box and strongly encourage him to take them on time!
Yes Tina, I think I have proved twice now LC is best for controlling blood sugar
As bad as his heart is he don't need sludge running through his veins!
Well ladies, I just broke down and bought 2 how to belly dance Dvds and a replacement digital camera!!
Yes, the doctors only gave him 5 years if he did not change his ways and it has been more like 13 so I guess they don't know everything
7-31-05
Well, I still have my ugly scar even though due to the tummy tuck I do have a nice flat tummy so if I wear one of them need some jewery to decorate my scar
I bet we can find those costumes on Ebay......hell you can find anything on Ebay
Well here it is sunday morning again, man this week has flown by so fast its unreal.
Dh and I were so glad to hear from Nick yesterday, really took a weight off our minds, just as we begin to peak in the worry dept he will call and all is good again.
I am drinking my blueberry coffee again this morning, oh how I wish I could have it everyday but not sure if I can afford it all year long....I wish!
I guess I am gonna try making my breakfast muffin this morning with sausage rather then bacon and put together some LC country gravy for dh to try out, and maybe try making a few cinnomin buns with the carbquik. Got to keep dh happy if he is gonna stay LC
Ok, my mock biscuits and gravy are wonderful, dh loves them and said it is just as good, maybe better then the old ones
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8-1-05
Well here it is monday and I went to bed early and got up late, maybe I am just getting old....or maybe my insomnia is going away.....cause I rarely sleep more then 4 hours a night until here lately....mmmm maybe the green tea??
8-2-05
Well I must be a teen again cause I just woke up and its noon Of course I did not go to sleep until 6 this morning, dh got drunk last night and I was on alert since he tried to pick a fight with me
Things are already settled down here and he knew he was in trouble when he woke to find himself alone in bed......so he will be good for a few more weeks.
On a lighter side, Nick called today and really sounded good, hopeful that he will be in Camp Leujune in 5 or 6 more weeks, plus he asked that dh and I not go to the base, he wants a couple of weeks to get himself together so we will wait and have a huge welcome home party for him
Yes, I understand it is gonna be rough on him coming home again, and he said he plans to get some drinking and hell raising out of the way so I won't have to see him like that.....although I suspect he will be doing a bit of that here anyway.
He said the phone and internet center was closed down due to 5 more deaths and they wanted to seal it off so nothing could be leaked to the families, and as bad as I feel for the families, I could not help but feel relief that my son was spared.
8-4-05
In Nicks case its his daddy at the top, his daddy was in Nam and a marine so right now he relates to him and depends on him more then anyone, then Kitty and I run a close second He called it going to Camp Lejeune to decompress!
Dh just told me 14 marines were just killed today north of Nick, it just breaks my heart to hear about all the senseless deaths
Wow, can't believe I am up at 6am, have slept until past 9 several mornings in a row now and feel like the day is gone so soon. Made it to Curves yesterday and then went for a swim for about an hour, and the pool was so nice and clean....Thank God for auto pool vaccums
I had to break down and clean the kids bathroom this morning, could stand it no longer, I swear I know I was cleaner at the same age, none of them may not care how dirty things get but damm, I do, Grrrrrrr.The pool sit out there looking like a swamp and as bad as they wanted to swim, not bad enough to clean it, it took me and Kitty for that, and my youngest dh told me yeaterday how he is leaving when he turns 18, I just laughed at him, no way he will make it on his own, people don't like to rent to pigs. I can't wait until he finds out what it takes to support yourself, bet he won't leave every light in the house blazing when he has to pay utility bills
He has a cute little gf and her baby has been here everyday and it happened, I fell in love with the little guy, he is adoreable and he follows me like a second shadow, blowing me kisses, I forgot how sweet babies were.
Oh well, hope today is a good one, got some more cleaning to do, can't wait on the people around here to do it, cause they just don't car
Oh what a day this has been, once again I had to be the family police, when I got a frantic email this morning from my aunt concerned about my mom....( I thought mom was fine, she lives next door to a sister that takes care of her, mom is 70 and increasing forgetful) And anyway my aunt tells me my mom had a fall, and cut and fat lip, bruised body and was not responding to her emails or calls....so I told her I would look into it, well I called the cell I helped her get ( because my nephew run her phone bill up to 1,4.00 with sex calls, he is 18,) and called her cell to hear 3 min of rap music, well I knew he had taken over her cell, so I call my sis and she tells me he has also taken over her computer and had run up 400 in cable bills ordering PPV, and was spending her money right and left on pizza and his car.....now my sis knows this cause she takes care of moms business and checked her accounts online, and told me mom had it out with her twin brother who called concerned for her and hung up on him....wel this was weird too, and said mom's blood pressure was sky high. So I knew mom would not agree to let me run the brat off, and I suspect he may have hit her, at the very least he is spending all of her bill money, she gets like 600 a month and he has used at least a third of that already. Oh yeah, sis said mom had 14.00 left in the bank for the rest of the month. So Sis and I went to apt manager and told him what we suspect and he agreed to call the elder abuse hotline and report it, and since he is a uninvolved party they should respond quicker....so my nephew came to the office and I told him the parties over, that we were reporting him, and he got my mom and took off to the next town where my other sister lives....and one of her daughters called me defending this brat so I cussed her out and hung up, Grrrrrr, I have to protect my mother from herself, and in my heart I believe she is afraid of this 6 ft 250 bully! So for now, my sis and I are in the dog house but thats ok because her finances will be checke into and they will see she does not know how to manage her money enough to live.
8-5-05
Well last I heard the wagons are circling around mom and my nephew from my other sister and her girls and suddenly mom is the victim of me and my sis that made the report......and mom's brothers and sister is behind me, so I am going ahead with it, even if they move her out, I can't imagine it working with her and my nephew and my sis, her dd and sil and 3 kids all living in one place.....and I am upset that they don't want her protected from people using her, oh well I know I did the right thing and I am not backing down.
8-7-05
Oh what a weekend, so tired, but doing ok, played darts again tonight, took 5th place.....not good, oh well
And this was my journaling while Lct was down, whew, so glad its back:) |
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[Aug. 8th, 2005|12:36 pm] |
Here it is 7am and it is quiet and peaceful, no one asking anything of me, just me and my faithful doggies and my coffee....and all is right with my world at this moment.
I am waiting to see if my little mini shnauzer has become pregnant...she was with her mate I choose a month ago and she is very mellow these days, sleeping much and eating like there is no tomorrow....guess I will know soon.
Not sure what is up with the kids but I hope it lasts, they are cleaning house and doing laundry and even cleaned up after supper for the 3rd night in a row, I am loving it and praising them......its almost like they are competing with one another to see who can clean the most...what more could I want?
I am going to the gym for my cardio around lunch time, decided to stick with the shorter times with increased speeds and intensity....I felt I got more out of my sunday workout doing it that way
My 17 y/o dh really pissed me off last night, called my dinner LC crap and said he was getting a job so he can buy his own food....Grrrrrrr....supper was pork chops breaded in almond flour and baked, and squash with red peppers grilled in butter and dreamfields mac and cheese...which btw has never stalled me at all....so he really ticked me off, I said "I am sorry that you don't have some yummy processed frozen dinner but I promise you your brother Nick would kill for this meal"...(Nick is in Iraq)!
Anyway, I c\have to cook mainly LC since dh is now full blown diabetic, with blood sugars running anywhere from 250-600, and tried to explain that to him...kids, drive me crazy!
Anyway this no scale challenge is tough.....after seeing close to a 5 lb drop overnight I am sooooo curious to see if anymore has come off but nooooo, I have to wait until the 29th....but I must say my body looked smaller in the mirror this morning, maybe its time to try on some smaller clothes after while
07-12-2005,
Another day has went by, wow they are going by too fast to suit me lately,my life is just flying by it seems. I am reading a book that belongs to my sister, dance of anger or something like that, cause I have way too much anger in me lately and need to find a way to let it go, and some of the people that I am angry at don't deserve that much of my thoughts.....so I am hoping by reading this book I can maybe let it go and them along with it.....cause all in all I have a good life, good dh and sons, and I am losing weight and sticking with my woe, not cheating at the drop of a hat, so I have lots to be thankful for
The only bad thing about today is thanks to Heather I have a song running thru my head....and I only knew the first 2 lines, ( I feel pretty, oh so pretty) so I had to download it and listen to all the words and it is still running through my head
7-13-05
I feel pretty, oh so pretty,
I feel pretty and witty and gaaaay!
And I pity any girl who isn't me today...
I feel charming, oh so charming,
its alarming how charming I feeeel
and so pretty that I hardly can believe I'm real.
heh, if you ever want to know all the words watch West Side Story, or Anger Managment if you can make it through the movie (it made my head hurt). Well now atlease if you have a song stuck there you know more words ;p
7-15-05
Friday is here already, amazing how fast my time is moving, like the rest of my life just racing by, now I want to slow it down a bit, can't believe I ever wished it away!!
Dh just left going fishing again, guess it is about the only pleasure he has left....he justs stays in the recliner all the time as if there is no life left for him.......sure wish he would get a spark of the old him going. He has terminal heart disease and just does not care anymore, the only time I see him light up is when Nick ( our son in Iraq) calls!
Too bad but Nick called me on the cell because dh was asleep in the recliner and missed his call again. Nick tells me he should be home the first week in oct, can't wait!
I was shocked when Nick asked me if I want him living here when he comes home, I said of course I do......so he said he will start school when he comes home and he plans to build me an office and a fence for my doggies Truth is he will come in handy, plus I miss our movie watching marathons, we loved watching the funny ones together Everytime he calls I take a deep breath and feel like a weight has been lifted, if only temp.
Well, I have in 10 days of exercise so far and will go to Curves today and hopefully Rush tomorrow
7-16-05
I too believe in what comes around goes around, can't think of a single mean thing I have done that did not come back to me tenfold, so when someone hurts me just for the sake of doing it, or tells a big lie I get comfort in knowing it will come back to bite them in the ass, no need for personal revenge huh
I am so tempted to jump on the scales after 11 days of working out but then again I know it might show a increase since having the tummy tuck and arm lift whenever I exercise I swell so just as well I don't peek! It is tough to wait, plastic surgeon and tummy tuck site tells me it can be a whole year before having a wow moment and some days I feel so fat although it does my heart good knowing all my tired worn out muscles have been repaired, and being able to wash my belly with one hand is priceless!! Also being able to pull an outfit off the rack and wear it is too, before I had to buy an ex large top and match it with a large bottom, now I can wear just a large or sometimes med outfit
Got to run out today and pick up a Harry Potter book for ds and dn, and send Nick his out to Iraq. Right now I will just sit here and drink my blueberry coffee and just enjoy the peace and quiet!
7-17-05
God I have been lazy today, have done nothing but play freecell, watch tv, and nap!
I made dh a peach cobbler using carbquik and he loved it! I am racking my brain to find ways to convert his favorite foods to LC....glad this one worked....next experiment is biscuits so I can do up some biscuits and gravy for him!
I will be dammed, but my Harry Potter book has been out in my mailbox all day and I was positive the kids would have checked there so I did not until now.....my dn is so excited she grabbed the book and is now reading it Guess I don't get it for free with amazon?
Anyway dh has dropped over a pant size and went from 212 to 198 and is back his 34's, has got to feel better, so I guess my LC cooking must be working for him, and his BS went from 600 to 200 so I guess I am doing something right! I know it is easier on me cooking all LC, although my ds is not too happy about it, too bad My niece has went from junior 13's to 7's so looks like most of the fatties are leaving here
Well it is sunday morning and everyone is still asleep as usual but me. I guess this is my favorite time of the day. I got my snowball bushes planted and this time next year I can sit outside and enjoy my many flowers....it should be a pretty site.
I opened my email this morning and one of the marine moms sent me an email with lots of pictures in it of the boy named James's funeral and I cried.......it showed the roads lined with 1000's of people of all ages standing at the roadside with their hands on their hearts and heads bowed as the funeral procession passed, even tiny little children....all were holding american flags, just showing their concern and respect, and I guess that is what scares me the most about Nick being there that the mother of James could be me. I read a letter to dh from Nick for dh's eyes only and now I wish I had not, because in it, Nick told dh that he volunteers for all the dangerous missions since he is single and does not want anyone to lose a daddy, and he wants his daddy to see him as a hero, and that he does it even though he is really scared.....and that makes me angry at my dh, that our son wants to be like him so much that he is willing to die to do it.....and this is something that is eating at me....so I thought I would dump it here so maybe I won't eat because of it! I wish I had not read that letter and I wish I had not opened that email....shit.
Oh Junie. :hugs: I'm sorry you read that letter and email. Things will be ok, Nick's really smart and he is coming home. You can bet that if he's making plans with you and me that he's working hard to come home. He's coming home for you and Ben and his family, and he coming home for me, even if he does say he's single (part of him still thinks I'll find someone before he gets home). You've raised him well and he knows what he's doing. He does want to be a hero, but you can bet he wants to be the hero that sees the proud look in his daddy's eyes upon returning home. Cheer up, Pam, he'll be back in 74 days and the most dangerous thing he'll have to do is not hit himself with a hammer while building Sassy and Belle's fence.
This is such a difficult thing for you Junie and not easy to stay on track under these circumstances. My ex DH is a person who has always put himself where the action is or whether the action finds him I don't know. His whereabouts and safety has always been a huge weight on me. The night of the London bombings I spent the entire evening trying to find him (he has 3 places of residence in 3 different countries) and you can bet, that if there is action somewhere - he will be in it. And of course, he was in London (just as he had been in New York on 9/11) I just KNEW it! But as DS says 'yes, he's always in the thick of it - but he always walks back through the door' and that's true - he always does. I'm sure your Nick will too.
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Thank you Beachfox,
I am normally pretty positive about him and the whole situation but when I read the email and saw the pictures sent to me it really took me to a bad place, so I did what I do, if not eating, I escaped into sleep, and now here I sit with my day nearly gone
7-18-05
I don't know how active I was after waking but I guess maybe my body did need the rest, so today is a new day and I will go to Curves later and get it started. Dh is going fishing again today so he will be gone until late tonight, I guess I can't begrudge him that. I have to pack up another care packagee for Nick, got to get his HP book and a few other things sent off. Poor guy is gonna have to send at least 2 large boxes of stuff home a week or so before he leaves, and I guess he plans to carry laptop back....hope he is able to sell older one along with his guitar we sent him.
I did not sleep well last night, dh is killing me with the air on, air off thing, he must have been cold last night cause he turned it off and I was sweating like a pig all night, and so I came over to the guest room where it is almost cold, next time he does that I will just come in here and sleep.
I am going to try to eat cleaner this week, lay off the processed junk, since I have swollen so much this weekend, I wonder how much it has to do with going off the diet mountain dew?? Maybe it was giving me more diuretic effects then I realized.....we will see I guess. I will do my best to make this a better week foodwise, no SF candies, and only real foods....continue with drinking plenty of water and do the same with my exercise.
7-21-05
Good day so far, got to catch up with one of the girls from other forum, and was nice to know I was missed Then State Farm came out and cut me a check for my car where old guy plowed into me, left a small crease in left quarter panel, so money came in handy......and then bought a scratch lottery ticket and won 80 bux...not bad I am going today and getting pedicure and nails done, and someone told me about getting eyelash extensions, mmmmm, may have to check into that too, feel like maybe some good pampering is just what the doctor ordered for me
7-22-05
I bet you will, but if for some reason you do not, don't lose hope as we all have minor stalls along the way
Well today is a Curves day, then not sure what I will do....need to do many things, but want to, not really much at all. Dh is now leaving to go fish, sure hope his luck is better this time, when he went on monday he broke down and had to have the Blazer towed home, but he got it fixed, it needed a fuel pump.....and he even wore his lucky hat.
So here I sit, drinking this wonderful blueberry coffee, God I hate to get hooked on it for 9.00 a lb, but damm it is good Dh would have a cow if he knew wat I paid for it.
I need to call my friend, the one who always does my perms, this last one is gone, and when Gary does it, it lasts until it grows out, plus he only charges me for the chemicals, this other girl charged me 110 bux and did a shitty job Plus I am looking into eyelash extensions, the girl who runs other forum got them and loves them, so I want to do it at least once I think my pernament makeup also needs a touch up, damm I am getting to be high maintance
7-23-05
Ok, just made a rather large order from Netrition ( Love that place) and ordered 10 lbs of carbquik, some PolyD fiber plus....the sweet kind, and got 24 bars of Z carb bars ( used to be only kind of sf candy I ate and it never caused cravings, why did I stop? and when it gets here I plan to experiment until I get biscuits down pat....since dh is now a raging diabetic, I have got to find a way to make him happy on LC, and when I used carbquik last week, my peach cobbler turned out very good, used splenda concentrate/xilitol and carb select canned peaches, he loved it, severd it to him hot with some melted butter and heavy cream He is now down to 198 from 212 and was busting out of 36 relaxed jeans and now is back in his 34's, so it must be working, plus got his BS down from 600 to under 200 and the man cheats like hell!! Good thing most HC foods are now gone from here! I am also gonna master a peach pie, and sausage balls, and maybe some peanut butter balls.....so far everyone that has tried my cheesecake tells me I should market it, I worked on that damm recipe for 2 years before I said, it is good Might be something to think about, except it is pricey to make the way I do....but even the non Lcers say it is best cheescake they ever ate....mmmmmm. I have nothing else to do, I may as well learn how to be a master LC cook For southern foods anyway
7-24-05
Well Beachfox I have lived in the south on and off since I was 13, but never considered myself from here, my ideas,et at nothing like dh's who is a true southerner....he was raised here in Tennesse and I was born in Ohio and raised in Calif., so we have nothing in common at all
Good morning TF, I left the link for the wonderful coffee in your journal, and I am down to 3 bags of beans so I need to order some more to get me through the winter
Wow, Brandi and I worked in my swampy pool for hours, and we even found a fish in it!!!!! I found out later that dh put it in there a week ago, and of course as soon as I shocked the pool it killed him.........Yuck....but we now have it looking more like a lake then a swamp Just got to get dh to patch the liner and then finish filling it, and let the Kreept Krawler vaccum do the rest......it is a 15x30 above ground and it is 4 ft on one end and 6 ft on the other, and never will I let it get into that shape again!
We both got sunburned but I would have thought since I am lighter in coloring then Bradi that I would have the worst one but she actually does!
Well she is still asleep and I just ground some more blueberry coffee, oh I love my bunn coffee maker |
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Well, got to get back in the habit of my daily journaling, the forum I have posted at for 2 years has been gone for a week now and still no reason, the owner is very frustrated at her web host, anyway I am doing well this week on my woe and exercise, water and suppliments, funny but usually if I do 2 or 3 of them something suffers but since I gave up my diet pop 3 weeks ago I have no trouble getting in my water or my suppliments and the longer I go without cheating the easier it is to eat on plan......and I guess 3 cheats in 2 and 1/2 years is not bad....and never have I let a cheat last more then a day......so it could be worse. I know I feel very good this week since I got rid of one of my biggest stressors last week, my dh's dd....she was a handful let me tell you....and I bent over backward for the last 6 months but I was over it!! She is a drug addict, [crack] and her daddy did not want to put her out but she left us no choice.....3 times she borrowed dh's truck and then forgot to bring it back so I told her no more driving our cars and then she became nasty with me so I then asked her to get out....and whew, am I glad she is gone.....so peaceful around here this week, so yes, I am feeling good (7-8-05)
7-9-05
Well, I did my hour of cardio yesterday and this morning got up and went to Curves so just one more day this week and I will be back in my exercise groove.....so I am feeling pleased with myself.
I have been going to the gym for close to 2 years now and since my upper arms and belly were showing no change in all that time I went ahead earlier this year and had my tummy tuck and arm lft.....the plastic surgeon assured me as long as I keep up my exercise as I lost the rest of my weight I should not have to worry about it ever going back like it was, and now I am doing tummy and arm work at least 3 times a week.
I am loving my results, although I still have a lot of swelling [it may take a year for swelling to subside] and one little place on my right arm he missed so he said if I can't fix it at the gym he will do a scar revision in 4 months...so I am hoping it smooths out with armwork
I had not had any pop in over 3 weeks and last night during the dart game I play in each week decided to have a diet m dew and what a mistake that was...I was so buzzed on the one I could barely throw.....I had no idea it had so much caffeine....since I drank it all my life without a break I guess I had a tolerance to it, so no more of that for me!!
7-10-05
Well, it has been a good day, am so happy that I asked dh's dd to leave....no more fights, everyone is picking up after themselves and getting along with one another....maybe seeing Moma go off on her made the others take a look at themselves...anyway I will take it I am helping out my niece, a 19 y/o special ed student, she has been living here since march and really tries to help but my sister never taught her anything so its been rough trying to teach her personal hygeine as well as how to clean house.....it kills me when I catch her rinsing dishes in cold water...and the first time she used the dishwasher she filled it with Joy dish washing liquid and there were suds up to our knees Also she poured a whole bottle of bleach in the washer and ruined all of her clothes, so she has been a handful but she is a sweetie and worth the time and frustration, and her clothes were pretty ragged anyway so we have got her new ones now. Well my 17 y/o son came to me today and took me up on my offer I made him years ago...I told him if he ever decided to have sex (not that I approve but I know better) that please use a condom and I would buy all he needed, so I just bought him a box, God that killed me, but I would rather do that then see him catch a disease or get someone pregnant!
Guess I will go try and get some rest. sigh
Well, it has been a good day, am so happy that I asked dh's dd to leave....no more fights, everyone is picking up after themselves and getting along with one another....maybe seeing Moma go off on her made the others take a look at themselves...anyway I will take it I am helping out my niece, a 19 y/o special ed student, she has been living here since march and really tries to help but my sister never taught her anything so its been rough trying to teach her personal hygeine as well as how to clean house.....it kills me when I catch her rinsing dishes in cold water...and the first time she used the dishwasher she filled it with Joy dish washing liquid and there were suds up to our knees Also she poured a whole bottle of bleach in the washer and ruined all of her clothes, so she has been a handful but she is a sweetie and worth the time and frustration, and her clothes were pretty ragged anyway so we have got her new ones now. Well my 17 y/o son came to me today and took me up on my offer I made him years ago...I told him if he ever decided to have sex (not that I approve but I know better) that please use a condom and I would buy all he needed, so I just bought him a box, God that killed me, but I would rather do that then see him catch a disease or get someone pregnant!
Guess I will go try and get some rest. sigh
Hello Junie!! Welcome back, and I must say I am inspired by your weightloss, dedication, and perseverence to this WOE!!! You are so awesome!
And also, I'm sure this is hard being the kid's parent and all, but THANK GOD you have a son who came to you about his impending sex life. I know we adults hope teenagers will wait until they are adults to have sex, but the reality is kids ARE having sex and they need protection. WHOLE lotta nasty diseases out there. I remember an episode of "Designing Women" a few years back, where Mary Jo was addressing a PTA meeting at her daughters school about sex education. She said something like, "Of course I don't want her to have sex. But I don't want her to DIE because she made a mistake."
So, big hugs to you Mom! I believe you are doing the right thing.
Hope we can "chat" more soon!
Kelly
Hi Kelly,
Thanks for stopping by and that is sweet of you to say these nice things....but against my dh's wishes I have always supplied all our boys with condoms because just maybe they will use their head and use protection when they have sex and I am smart enough to know it is gonna happen, maybe a lot earlier then anyone knows!
I still remember being young and I thought I was gonna live forever!
7-11-05
Well here it is monday morning and more rain....Grrrrrr....I have 4 white snowball bushes, 2 blues ones and a crepe mrytle dwarf tree sitting outside in 3 gallon buckets and they need to go in the ground, soon.....but not this morning!
This wek I will change and do Curves M-W-F and Rush the other days as Curves is only open sat morning from 9-11 and that way I can squeeze Rush in anytime over the weekend to get in day 6 and maybe take off a weekend day....I feel so much better doing 6 days a week....my energy levels are up again, my house is cleaner, and I cooked every day this past week and if you knew me you would know that is a big deal.....my 2 surgeries in feb and april really zapped me and now I feel like the old me again
The forum I have called my homme for over a year now is still closed, and I sure hope I don't lose my journal.....since I have all my pre and post op details there....but even if it comes back I will continue posting here too, that way if one goes down the other is a back up.....I need all the support I can get! I miss all my friends but this certainly seems to be a good place to hang my hat
Its sad the way I depend on my online friends, as I don't have many friends in real life but since I have joined Curves, maybe that will change?? Woman there seem very friendly and all are local so who knows? I found a wonderful new coffee I am hooked on, its a wild blueberry from Vermont and its seasonal so I need to lay in a good supply before winter, cause this stuff is great!! I never thought I would enjoy a flavored coffee until this come along, and I don't even sweeten it, and everyone that tasted it so far wants the web site
Well, will drink a smoothie and take my suppliments then get ready for Curves |
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